Sometimes, I find it difficult to let sleep envelop me at night- when my thoughts scintillate and flit about like fireflies.

My brain seems to operate in two modes: a permanent glitch when I need it to work, and an unwarranted software update right when I need to fall asleep.

Last night, I was awake for hours, mulling over old incidents and thoughts walking into latched rooms without knocking (honestly, who gave them the keys?). It’s as if the silence around me creates a pandemonium akin to a hundred violin players, all off-sync, within me.

The ceiling fan murmuring, clock ticking restlessly – almost counting the hours until dawn – and moonlit beams shuffling nervously through gaps in the curtain, unsure and oscillating.

It’s impossible to let my mind quiet down and stop cooking up absurd nonsense- so much so, that I wish I had an “off-button” for it.

I know this is probably a pretty common experience, but it’s strange nonetheless, the feeling of perceiving every sensation around you and diving into a full-blown TED Talk.

Can anyone else relate?

Yours truly,
Divi